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Friday, November 4th, 2005
5:05 pm	Hello All I broke up with Mark a couple of weeks ago. I was just re-reading some of my old lj entries and realised that we really werent meant to be together, I was unhappy as far back as this time last year, and I didnt even realise it. I guess the bottom line was that I fell out of love with him a long time ago, but we had got into the comfort zone which was tough to get out of. The strange thing was that he told me he sort of understood - I think he knew that things were wrong between us, but didnt want to admit it. We are just at completely different stages in our lives - he is looking for a life partner right now, and right now I just want to fall in love... Bex xxx (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 1st, 2005
1:01 pm	Back To Oxford... Hi I'm off back to Oxford later this afternoon! I'm going to try to keep a proper diary this term again, I am going to be Uber busy but will give it my best go. As I said I am living in a house with Nikki, Hannah, Charlotte and Sophie this year in a house, and I'm JCR Secretary so hopefully will be getting more involved with college. Here is the Freshers week plan of which I am going to invite myself to most of: Tues: 9pm- drinks in bar with college parents, then off to PoNaNas Weds: 4-4.30pm- Barty's. Could any second years going down at this time go to Lodge first to pick up some Freshers and show them the way? If anyone would like a stall at the college fair (sports captains e.t.c) please email me so I can set that up for you. Heading to Park End by 11. Thurs: 8pm- Jazz and cocktail night in Deep Hall, then The Studio Fri: 8pm- Bop- theme Back To School. Could anyone that wants to DJ please email Paul Clark Sat: Ice- skating disco- please sign up in lodge (£3 each) Woo Hoo! On the down side I had to say bye bye to marky again this morning, which was hard, but it is getting easier - I didn't cry my eyes up this time! We slept in each others arms all last night! I know that I just need to get on with it and then it will go quicker. Might leave a message later, Byeeeeeeeeee xx (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
3:57 pm	Hi All Am now working in telewest but hate it, very boring, but have to stay because otherwise i'll have no money - I came home with minus sixty pounds, worked for one week and earned sixty pounds, then checked my account today and had.... minus sixty pounds, buggar. If they keep taxing me like they are (which i dont understand - 25%! Is that emergency tax?) then I really wont have any money at all to go on holiday with. So in conclusion I am now on the hunt for a second job. No rest for the wicked as they say. Might apply for a bar job on the waterfront tomorrow. Have no idea how i'll get back at night and stuff though. *weeps* How about I sell everything I own on eBay. I actually might. Went to a barbecue last night with Mark and got very drunk. But everyone was so it was good! Came back home at four and would have successfully made it to bed without waking up anyone if the dog hadnt barked. Marks friends from work are really nice. But I seriously wont be able to go out again with them unless I get a second job. I cant believe I'm so poor and its going to be this way for the next three years. I think Leanne had the right idea taking a year out to earn money first. But then I wouldnt have even started my four year course yet. I feel like I'm working myself too hard constantly. When I'm at uni I have to work damn hard and I'm stressed all the time and tired all the time. And now I come home its just the same, except a bit less stressed except about money. Little bit moany today. Obviously I am grateful for all I have. Bleugh. Bex x Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Friday, July 1st, 2005
11:57 am	Heylo! Feels so good to finally have time to sit and update!! Today I can finally have a day where I can just relax for a while. Mark's at work, I've got a job which starts next week, so no more jobhunting and no uni work to do! They've given us the summer off. For anyone that still checks this by the way, even if I dont update, I check my friends diaries whenever I check my emails, which is most days. So whats been happening? I got home last friday. The last term at uni was basically work work work. But it eventually paid off and I got a distinction in the exams, though I could have done even better if I hadn't fucked up one of the papers, which I only scraped a 2:1 in. But the scientists finished their exams at the end of the seventh week, and chemists were the first people to finish, so I had two weeks at the end of term with no work to just piss around all day. Yey! I went out clubbing five nights of every week and stayed until the club closed. I didnt wake up until eleven and spent the rest of the day sitting in the sun socialising and throwing eggs, flour, water, etc over the people who were finishing their exams. I was one of the only people who was allowed to stay in their room for the last two weeks (through unknown reasons) so I had my two best friends there, Nikki and Rich, staying in my room, which was really fun and we did things like going fruit picking at a nearby farm and going swimming in an outdoor pool that we found only fifteen minutes walk away from college. In other news I was elected JCR secretary mid way through term, so I am on the JCR executive committee (sounds posher than it is, basically you just get to through pennies at small children on may day from the top of the tower - I'll explain some time) next year I am living in a house with four other girls. The house is twenty five minutes walk away from college though, and half an hour away from the chem blocks, so I'll need to take my bike next year, though word around the office is we're being given bus passes. Three of the girls are single, and we will be living literally a street away from the sports ground, so they are planning to have entire rugby teams over at our house... should be interesting!!! As you can imagine Mark is not happy with this arrangement, and we're had rows about it. If you hadnt picked it up, this means I am still in a relationship with the long suffering Mark, who is now slightly scarily clingy. Strange to think this time last year he dumped me over the phone and now cant be away from me. Absence makes the heart grow fonder I guess. I have a job too, yey!!! Its only temping as a receptionist for one week next week for fifteen hours, but thats because in a couple of weeks the temping lady is putting me forward for a full time job at telewest as a data entry clerk, woo hoo!! Also thats on the waterfront in brierley hill, so I can stalk Leanne, yey!! I really hope I get a job because although I havent spent any of my loan yet, my savings account is starting to look a bit lacking! I'm going to apply for barwork as well a few nights a week or maybe some waitressing work somewhere. I joined fitness first as well on sunday, so I can lose the pot belly and the big bum, and hopefully drop a cupsize or two, I'm double D now!!! I went to a kickboxing/circuit-training class last night which was really good, though my arms hurt a bit today. The instructor told me my kicks were really good for my first time, and that I have a very strong left leg, haha! That was a long entry! I'll try and update a bit more regularly over the summer Bex xxx (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
10:05 am	Sort of Sad I have been the most stupid person in the world. Todays the day I go back to wolverhampton, however i'm going back under a slight raincloud. Where shall i start - wednesday evening. My name is becki haden and i am a lightweight drinker (as if people didnt already know) and with the plan of getting slightly drunk i bought three bottles of wine with dominique, drank one... and then spent the rest of the evening violently throwing up in paul and bunnys toilet at their party! With everyone there so everyone saw! It was so humiliating and everyone thinks i was absolutley slaughtered. (which to be fair i probably was, which after only one bottle of wine is equally embarassing) For the last two days i've been nothing but reminded of it - its because i dont normally get very drunk and everyone seemed a little shocked. I guess i'll just have to get my angel reputation back next term. But the thing is when i woke up at five in the morning and realised i'd completely embarassed myself and was feeling very sick still, decided to phone no other than mark for comfort. And he was so so so nice! Really understanding and comforting, almost pleased that i'd phoned him for comfort. And to cheer me up he was saying he'd take me away for the weekend next week and was planning it over the phone, it was so sweet. And i realised what a fool i was for ever doubting in him - i have this new-found affection for him. In fact I cant wait to get back and see him now. So maybe things arent so bad on the mark front after all. I had a really bad last-night-of-term as well - nowhere near the end of last term when it was a total climax - had an amazing bop, then dominique got really drunk, came out with us to this weird trance club where everyone from college was going, the zodiac, and i had to walk her all the way back from this place which was in cowley so it took an hour to college and back. Then when i finally got back, realised the place was rubbish and i wished i'd stayed in college. Plus i was the only girl who was still out, which was weird. Got people to come back at half two though and bunny, rich and paul came back to my room. We ended up talking till five which was pretty good, except rich had a little word with me about the drunkeness on wednesday which upset me a bit, because he wasnt even there so ppl must have been talking about it. It was all a bit of an anticlimax. Either way i quite want to go home and start again next term with a clean slate - i think i'm going to aim for a first in the exams, though it will involve so much work, esp. over the holidays, grr. Well i have to go, i have quite a few things to do, as i havent packed or showered yet and the folks are arriving at two. XxX (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 17th, 2005
1:42 pm	Rainy Thursday Afternoon Hey diary diary, I'm sitting in my pyjamas wasting time before i start work. Need to clean my room and sort out a load of lecture notes before i can. Nikki and emma have gone shopping, but i didnt fancy going because a) i'd spend money b) its much nicer inside in pyjamas watching the rain and drinking tea and writing in a diary. Went out to Bar Risa's last night which was pretty good, music was good, did a bit of dancing, started an ice fight with ice cubes, then went back to nix room with bunny rich and paul and watched family guy dvds till 4. Nothing too exciting to report. All good fun. Then we had two lectures today with an hours gap in between them in which we went to starbucks, and i've just been to nikkis for lunch. ALice came with us to lunch today, which was really nice actually and we were all telling jokes and having good conversation. Even a bit of chemistry banter about which is the best organic textbook. I think Alice is perhaps maybe getting used to the idea that i'm not as stupid and dappy as i outwardly appear, which is a good thing. Marky is coming to stay tonight for five days, till tuesday, which to be honest will be a bit of a nightmare because i cant work while hes around. He'll be sat at one end of the room and i'll be on my bed working and every five minutes i take a break to go and sit on his lap, i just cant help myself. very distracting. I might be meeting his real dad for the first time this weekend too, because he lives about six miles out of oxford, thats where mark parks his car when he comes to visit. I was thinking earlier how i really dont want to go home now. This is my home, i really feel like i belong here with everyone now. *sigh* Bex xx (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
7:39 pm	Its Fifth Week! Heya Half way through my second term at Oxford University and things are going really well! This is the most stress free part of the four years so i'm told, so i'm just enjoying myself at the moment. Work is pretty hard still - the physical is really difficult, thats the quantum theory part, whereas the organic is tolerable, but theres so much and it all interlinks so can get confusing. Just started inorganic tutes this term with my gorrrrgeous inorganic tutor, hes 28, rugby player build, very clever, laid back, funny and just an ,amazingly nice person. If i werent sickeningly in love with mark, and slept with professors... you never know! Am still rowing, but its not very serious this term and i've become more unfit i think, we have the torpids (an intercollege rowing comp) qualifiers on friday, which should not be fun. Somebody in our boat fainted while rowing the other day. I am still girlfriend to Mark Turvey - he had delivered to me a dozen red roses yesterday!!! He seems to be more in love with me than ever before - i'm not boasting about it, just stating it. It gets a little overwhelming at times when he talks about marriage and babies, while i still want the fun and excitement, i'm only eighteen years old. When he was eighteen he was a complete lad and a player - not that i want to go out with anyone else, but i'm not ready for the nights in with hetty wainthrop yet! The friendship groups are still ever evolving and developing, but i am in quite a stable crowd. Bunny, Nikki, Paul, Rich (my college husband incidentally) Dominique, Hannah, Charlotte, Dominic, Mike and Emma. I know everybody else in the year pretty well now though as well (apart from the mathmos) so i never feel limited. I'm just generally feeling very happy and stable right now, I really hope it lasts. Bex (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
2:24 pm	Fa la la la laaaa la-la la la Ello Chickens Am lookin forward to christmas now!!! Trying to block out the thoughts of work and rowing until next week when i'll panic. Even did some work today cus i felt so guilty... three sides of notes admittedly, but still! Tonight is my last night at work - YEYEYEYEYEYEYEY!!! And its two nights before christmas! Happy smiley happy! Saw liz and lizz yesterday, and am seeing liz lizz laura and loo tonight, yey! Had a really good time with them yesterday, went for coffee, then shopping for underwear, then the pub. Then went late night christmas shopping with Mark last night, its one of the best nights we've spent together, wandering around all christmassy and coupley. He even took me to a coffee shop and bought us hot chocolate, then he came back and stayed at mine, which was lovely ;0) Talk soon! xxx (Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
11:29 am	CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS Bonjourno Pepperonis Today I am going to the gym and then doing some more maths, even though i cant do it :0) Yesterday argos told me they're not going to keep me on after christmas because i told them i couldnt work everyday after christmas - apparantly that means i'm not flexible enough and "after all i'm going back to uni in january". I mean I guess it's fair enough, but i really could have used the money, I hate being poor more than anything and i'm going to be poor for the next four years at least. *sigh* I mean, I know money isnt everything, but i feel like i'm surviving rather than living on it at the moment. And i cant replace the money from my savings account now. I guess on the up side I now have more time than I thought I had to do uni work, yippi-doo. I wonder what mark's got me for christmas - he's poorer than I am, so i have no idea what it could be, I'm quite excited about it. He hasnt got enough money to just buy something without thinking about it, so i'm hoping for a really thoughtful present. Should be interesting! Its our one year anniversary on tuesday, we're going late night shopping - why dress it up? Am going ice skating on wednesday with the old school gang, woo! Yey christmas! Need to buy presents for everyone still... shit. I'll raid bilstonia today and find some. Ho Ho Ho!! Boo xx (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
7:41 pm	Sweet Home Alabama Hello There, I've been home for two weeks now. Reading the last few entries it feels like oxford was a million years ago. I havent done any work since i've got back, which is silly of me because i have now got a ridiculous amount to get through in four weeks, including revising for an exam that i have to ace. If just to keep my own morale up, because right now i'm not quite believing that i'm going to pass this year. My reports were sort of ok. I got a "poor effort" in maths... maybe because he caught me asleep in one class... maybe because i find determinants physically impossible. I got a first/two one in organic chem, yey! And atkins said some nice things, about how i shouldnt be so unsure and that i was at the right uni doing the right course for me. Somehow my confidence with chem has gone. I've been seeing Mark quite a lot, but we've been bickering more than we used to. He told me today over lunch that i never show any emotion, that i dont need anyone. How do you react to that? Admittedly i never cry in front of anyone, it shows weakness, that there is an imperfection in your life - i cant explain it. And of course i need people, more than most of those people realise. I haven't done any christmas shopping yet and i have no money to do any, so if i need to buy a present for you, expect a budget christmas! I've even gone back to work at argos to try to replace the money i took from my savings this term, even though i dont really have time to work there as well as everything else i need to be doing.I wish days were three times longer. I havent seen liz c or lizz tho i promised them i'd go out with them sometime. I've been to the gym once and i need to go everyday if i'm going to carry on rowing, i cant even do 500m anymore, and they want me to do 1000m! I'll leave it there, love Bex xx (Comment on this)
Monday, November 29th, 2004
12:21 am	Keep Swimmin' Little Fish! Diary diary, I have so much work to do, i'm going to stay up all night and do lots and then tomorrow i can go out and socialise properly because at the moment i'm feeling slightly forgotten about as noone has as much work as the chemists and we're being very distanced :0( Mark came to see me last night. When he arrived i'll be honest i felt a little different, he was soooo happy and kept saying the sweetest things and i was just smiling and nodding, like i'd fallen a little out of love with him. Then we went out and i kept saying the wrong thing - i was joking and saying he was a skinflint not thinking about the fact he has money issues and it really hurt his feelings. Then in bed i barely slept and i was uncomfortable and it all felt wrong. But then after he left this afternoon i came back to my room and he wasnt here and i felt so empty. I've been gloomy all evening, i really miss him, want him back in my bed to cuddle up to and have him cuddle back. I feel so awful inside for being so stupid and miserable all weekend. I must really love him i think. I go home on saturday, but til then i have to plough through all this fucking work. I hate it. Its really put me off chemistry which is unfortunate because i actually kind of liked it when i arrived. *sigh* Bex xx (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 26th, 2004
1:31 am	Yes It Is 1am ...and I've just got back from the library. Though to be fair i was pissing about for most of the evening and didnt start working til 9. Might stay up and do some more work, i feel quite awake. The quantum mechanics is actually a nightmare. I don't get it at all. Well its not that i dont get it, the book just does a different random thing for each question and i havent been able to properly spend the deserved amount of time on it. Grr. Marks coming down tomorrow, yey! I can't believe this ongoing love, everyday i wake up and i still love him as much as the day before, i havent changed the way i feel about him since we've first been together, except maybe falling even more in love with him. I think this might be forever... But todays biggest excitement - we won two boat races!!!! It was the most amazing rush ever, i've never pushed myself so hard in anything, by halfway through i was so tired, but you find this energy from somewhere, maybe its adrenaline or something. We beat two fairly good teams too! We're into the third round of the competition tomorrow, but i cant row because i have a tute, hopefully i can go down and watch them row tho, crossed fingers. It would be awesome if we got through to saturday! We're bonding so much as well, you all have to help and follow each other when you're rowing and forgive each other when you make mistakes. Its a real experience to go through. Boo xx (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
8:59 pm	Wednesday Todays Favourite Song Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment Desperate for changing Starving for truth I'm closer to where I started Chasing after you I'm falling even more in love with you Letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you Forgetting all I'm lacking Completely incomplete I'll take your invitation You take all of me now... I'm falling even more in love with you Letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and not quite sure where to go And I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you There's nothing else to lose There's nothing else to find There's nothing in the world That can change my mind There is nothing else There is nothing else There is nothing else Desperate for changing Starving for truth I'm closer to where I started Chasing after you.... I'm falling even more in love with you Letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and not quite sure where to go And I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you This is the most amazing song ever. Download it and play it loud! Today i went rowing and we almost won but the race was called off halfway thru because another boat crashed - we're rowing again tomorrow, eek! I went out last night to this club called the bridge and got incredibly stupidly drunk, was dancing for hours with all the Lincoln people including some dodgy dancing with Paul to the spice girls, i dont remember getting back. Another one of the best nights so far. Then i had a tutorial this morning which was iffy because of my hangover, but i still got a few questions right that alice got wrong which always cheers me up. We had crew table tonight and was talking to matt for ages afterwards, i really think so lovely even though he has a really bad reputation. Gotta work tonight :( might actually get it done without rushing at the moment tho! Bex xx (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
7:04 pm	Hola! Yesterday, I found myself in the snow, soaking wet, standing on some gravel with no shoes on, holding a heavy boat over my head with river water dripping onto me. I thought: "this is the worst moment of my life" Today, I had a swim test. Nuff' sed Bex xx (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
10:58 pm	Thursday Today i'm still happy. Really truly happy. I've got the most lovely friends in the world who i really care about and who care about me. And i've made a few friends at uni who i love already, nikki (whos genuine, funny, sweet and totally on the same wavelength as me) bunnie (probably my best guy friend here, who i adore, hes so fun to be around, yet u can tell theres a sensitive side, he walked me across the road the other night to check i got back ok - i only had to cross the road!) paul (tells the funniest drunk stories ever, another genuine decent guy) sophie (glam and gorgeous, as well as equally hilarious as the rest, someone i can read cosmo with) as well as little rich, emma, rob, dominique, hannah, charlotte, tom, adam, labour dave, dominic, ashley, henry... loads of lovely people! The work is amazingly hard and tiring i admit, most days i'm physically and mentally exhausted from it. But the most satisfying feeling in the world is when u go to the tutorials with some of the cleverest people in the world and they tell you that you got the work right. I've lost a bit of weight from rowing and i'm way fitter than i used to be, as well as making other friends and going on "crew dates" and having special crew dinners. Esp as a fourth year chemist coaches us, so i know an older chemist pretty well who frequently tells me that if i'm ever stuck he'll come and help me. Bless. Things with mark are amazing. We're so in love still. Since i've been here i havent had a single doubt that i'm doing the wrong thing staying with him while i'm at uni. I've completely fallen for him, he's the only person in the world i could ever want to be with. Every night before i go to sleep i pretend hes next to me holding me. I think about him constantly. I can't wait to be home with him. Just watching tv with him or going to the cinema, just going to his house and feeling like i belong, being able to see him whenever i want to, being in his car... i miss everything about being with him. Its hard feeling this way, but its good because i know that i love him because i miss him so much. (hope i havent made anyone sick by now) Even things with my family are good at the moment. Everythings great! I know things are bad for a couple of my friends right now, and the best consolation i can give is that everyone knows i've had my real lows, and the sun does come out, even if it takes time. Love u all xxxx (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
8:14 pm	Happy! You experience the lowest low, then the highest high at oxford. Yesterday i'd done no work and matt (the coach) ended up persuading me to go to a rowing session in the evening, when i really should have been doing work. I came back depressed, tired, overworked. Phoned nikki to say i wasnt coming out after all, which depressed me because i really really wanted to go out. Went for a shower and there was a knock on the door. I opened it to find bunny, paul, domonique, hannah, charlotte and nikki smiling at me, they'd come to force me out of my room. I had SUCH a good night. Went to Po Na Na's and got completely drunk. Saw LOADS of Lincoln people. Talked to the weird guy next door and he invited me round today for lunch, tho i didnt go bcoz i've been working all day. (tomorrow i'll go) Was dancing til half two, then went back to nikkis room and stayed there til five and basically didnt stop laughing. Then trekked back to my own room. It was one of the best nights i've had here so far!!! I'm sooo happy!! Today i had to wake up at 8 and work continously to catch up, but it was so worth it. Even my organic tutorial went well and i knew loads of mechanisms that alice didnt! AND i get a lie in tomorrow bcoz lectures start later :0) Happy happy happy :0) AND i see mark in a week and a bit then i'm home and i can see him every day. *sings* everythings coming up roses... Bex xx (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 15th, 2004
6:42 pm	Oxford Today is the perfect example of how my life has become: 5.30am wake up 5.31am go back to sleep 6.05am re-wake up, realise i have five minutes to get ready 6.06am sophie knocks on my door 6.10am run to the lodge 6.15am run to the river 6.30-8am rowing on the river 8.15am run back to college 8.40am arrive back with five minutes to get ready 9-12pm lectures 12-1pm very fast lunch 1-6pm smelly cold organic labs Tonight 7pm dinner 8-12am making 25 sides of notes on quantum theory I'm absolutely exhausted! Uni is fantastic, i love it here and i love the people, but right now, three weeks before i come home, i've run out of steam. Just want to be home with mark again. They call it fifth week blues or something, when u start to miss home, etc etc. Things r so good with mark. In fact things are so good in general, if only i had more time to sort myself out during the day and more time to sleep and relax. Bex xx (Comment on this)
Monday, September 27th, 2004
1:36 pm	Monday Monday Today's Favourite Song Embrace, Gravity Honey, It's been a long time coming, And i can't stop now Such a long time running, And i can't stop now Do you hear my heart beating Can you hear that sound 'Cause i can't help thinking And i don't look down And then i looked up at the sun And i could see Oh, the way that gravity turns for you and me And then i looked up at the sky And saw the sun And the way that gravity pulls on everyone On everyone Baby, It's been a long time waiting, Such a long, long time And i can't stop smiling, no i can't stop now But do you hear my heart beating can you hear that sound 'Cause i can't help crying And i won't look down And then i looked up at the sun And i could see Oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me And then i looked up at the sun And saw the sky And the way that gravity pulls on you and I On you and I Can you hear my heart beating Are you hearing that sound 'Cause i can't help crying And i won't look down The majority of my last week will consist of a lot of reading of very very boring books and saying goodbye. I still need to pack and buy a lot of boxes and bags. I need to say goodbye to people like Sarah (my oldest friend), my brother and his babies, my cousins and, of course, Mark. So back into diary form. Went to marks on friday and watched a film. Thats as exciting as it got, though i am feeling more and more at home at his house. I used to feel like a total alien there, now i feel a lot more like i belong. Saturday was my last day at work! Hurray! I wont miss it at all, except the money. Horrible tiring dirty dangerous job. Then saturday mark stayed over and we watched notting hill. I like having someone to just sit and watch films with, you can just forget everything for a couple of hours. He left early on sunday to go visit his nan, to which i noted, i wasnt invited - read into it how you like. Then went shopping yday and watched another film in the evening. Today i woke up early and watched Trisha - its amazing how you can come to hate complete strangers. The people are always arrogant and excitable and lazy and fat and you just want to slap them, aaaaaaaarg! Then read an online chem thing i'm apparantly meant to read before i go... except its about 300 pages long and i am on page ten. Oops. So back i go to that Bex xx (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 26th, 2004
6:54 pm	Checklist Life Acheivements So Far Lost virginity Worn a VERY short skirt Been mistaken for a prostitute Got off with someone without knowing their name Got off with someone even tho i knew a friend liked them (ouch!) Said "I Love You" and meant it Said "I Love You" and not meant it Worn a pair of stripy socks Slept all night in a field under a duvet donated by some gypsies Been proposed to by a 40 year old man in a chat room Slept in someones car Passed GCSEs, 9 A*s, 2 As Passed A Levels, 4 As Got into Oxford Uni Scavenged for cigarettes Been so drunk i passed out Been so drunk that Elton John was "too fast" for me Been stopped in the street because i'm "so gorgeous" Dressed as a carrot at a fancy dress thing (it seemed funny at the time...) Had sex in a hotel Gatecrashed a Russian wedding party in St Petersburg Been to New York! Had a helicopter ride around the statue of liberty Played in the lifts in a hotel in Paris Got locked in a reception wearing nothing but my nightie in a hotel in Edinburgh having forgotten the number code to the door (dodgy...) Taken "The Morning After Pill" Kissed an ex Had a job *whispers* at argos Slept on peoples sofas... a few times Been invited to a spa party (yey leanne!) Been to a ball Been to Eurodisney Owned pets Learned a little Welsh Learned a little Italian Learned a little Spanish Learned a little German Learned Russian Learned French Learned Latin Learned English Acted in a play Can play Tequilla on a trumpet Can play chopsticks on the piano Can blow grass Read Pride & Prejudice Learned the "Absynth and Oozo" Lesson Learned the "Red Wine" Lesson Tasted Guinness (ergh!) Eaten ice cream for breakfast Had a crush on Philip Schofield (EEEEEEEEEK!) (Comment on this)
Friday, September 24th, 2004
6:20 pm	Quickie! Only a quickie tonight cus marky mark is pickin me up in a few minutes. I haven't written for a while because i went to wales with my parents. It was really good although the weather was crap, but as usual with holidays with your parents, the boredom drove me to eating constantly. I feel soooooo fat now i've come back. Not helped by the fact that my boobs are growing again. I'm turning into dolly parton, help! Which reminds me, a funny thing. I walked in earlier to my parents sat giggling - the underwire had come out of one of my bras and broke the washing machine!!! How embarassing, and my dad had been trying to fix my bra for me, lol. It was quite funny tho, apparantly the washing machine was making pinging noises. Said goodbye to my friend louise this morning, shes one of those rare people i could just talk to for hours, going from silly conversations to really deep personal conversations. Shes the person i really talk to about mark stuff, i guess you need to have really felt those feelings to understand some things. Gotta Go! Oxo next tuesday, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek! Bex xx (Comment on this)